I don't like wears any dress and makeup. I made cosmetics. but it doesn't mean I wear that. it also doesn't mean I am special, speak about making other people down just to lift you up theory. There must be a lot of people not adore it too. A little back story when I was a kid, my mom got so flustered about making me wear a ball gown. "why don't you want to look like Princess when everybody does?" she said. And for the rest of my youth, I spend a lot of time to thought about that. why? I ended up look messed in my entire collages era every single day. I avoid parties, hang out, and funnies things. I also not came to the graduation. I hate looks spectacular. I do absolutely hate my appearance. I finally make a deal with my thought, spirit, and soul about this principle. and I found that I don't like cosmetics because it makes me feel like a fake. no offense, please. It's like a smile when you feel hurt. Happy when you broke. like putting a mask right on...
-Soul, 2020- Berhenti ngerjain penelitian bikin gua akhirnya men"cuti"kan diri sendiri selama 2 minggu. Dan disaat orang lain baru hingar bingar meneliti, here I am... di depan laptop bersama disney hotstar dan pixar menemani waktu istirahat mental ini. Karena tujuan gua 2 minggu adalah istirahat mental, maka gua memutuskan untuk menonton semua film yang temanya kesehatan mental. 1 film yang menyentuh ruang pikiran dan hati gua, Soul, film yang katanya terbaik di tahun 2020. Gua heran kok bisa film kartun buat anak - anak malah jadi film terbaik? Dan setelah gua tonton, well, film ini gak cocok buat anak - anak dah kayaknya. Terlalu berat, sama kayak the best masterpiece "a little prince" yang gaya penulisan bukunya ciri khas buku dongeng, yah namanya juga surealisme, tapi menohok banget pas dibaca orang dewasa. Yang mendorong gua membuat tulisan terhadap film ini adalah gua akhirnya berhenti sejenak dari memikirkan teori dan mempertanyaan lagi hidup gua. Dan bersam...